Something New....Someday

I sang my song and it was our song, oh my soul, amplified through my heart, encased in gold. Together we stood, under the sunshine our shadows cast, our souls entwine and hearts combined. We walked together, amongst the sweetgrass, and honeysuckle, and Spiritleaf Paintbrush all set with wide strokes to show a future touched with gold. The winding stream where we would walk Under Aspen and juniper, Cottonwood and Douglas Fir, The Spruces speak of eternal green and mirror what our love might be. As we pass over river stream, we sample herbs both bitter and sweet. Parsley and Tarragon, Oregano and Lemon Balm, lavender as far as the eye can see and we pull roots for dandelion and burdock tea. I sang our song, and it was ours. The notes were sweet as the trickled down the flowers. Your hand was in mine and swayed in the breeze as we walked once again between the trees. and as night fell, we saw the moon between the leaves We laid down a bed of pine needles, Cattails ...

i am breaking the world around me, But now i feel disconnected from the world. I can see a star above me, But the clouds cover it so quickly. My mind moves to mexico, And i sleep, and i cry. The spiritual and physical colide, And my body to I, And my body dies.

Mescalito calls, i do not answer, I sit by the door waiting for him to come instead. Mescalito calls but i am too hurt, To hurt to heal but Not hurt enough,to answer. I sleep on my front doorstep, Bit the doorstep i sleep on does not heal, It does not condone healing. I do not wAit for resolution, Mescalito knows, mescalito knows. I do not wait for healling, instead i wait for the pain, Mescalito knows, I wait at my doorstep, waaiting for the pain, And mescalito waits. I drink another beer, Mescalito knows my grief. I sip until they show themselves, But mescalito is crying. Im sleeping in the cold, Like i did before, Mescalito was with me in my pain, Im sipping on the door of my appartment, But mescalito already sat down with me. I crack open another beer, Mescalito knows, Mescalito is cryimg, I stumble through the door with my mind, Mescalito sleeps beside me in agony. I ran all the way home by not trying to feel anything, Mescalito knows, But mescalito doesn't speak, I fall ...