What happens when you take them?

my body is reaching out to me.
my consciousness is something outside of my body.
i feel that being, speaking.

a lot of times i am on the verge of tears,
the other times i am wanting to feel alive.
those moments have disastrous effects on me, but i keep trudging through.

i know i am on the verge of something, i can feel my spirit ascend.
my heart opens up and it feels like i am missing something,
i have only been taught suppression when i should have learned acceptance.

My heart feels too open, it hurts.
I'm wishing for the ayahuasca to take me,
so i can return.

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