There is soil under my fingernails
From the hole I dug, to bury the seeds of sunflowers,
Where you once lay.
Where you saw the flower of life, I planted the seeds.
In the years to come, I can visit that place
And imagine you laying there,
where the sunflowers raise their petals towards the sun.

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